Just decide that you're done.

I’ve been running for a month.

I can’t believe it. And I can’t believe that I can’t believe it.

A few years ago I would have thought that it was crazy that I went so long without exercising. The four months through the mold experience was the longest that I went without working out. This time around I think it was a little longer.

I’m here again to talk about running and healing because I think that this message is so important. There are so many aspects of it and each post that I share in relation to it can provide a bit more clarity on how to truly pave your own path. So often we see teachers and coaches putting out offerings that result in making you more like them instead of guiding you down the path of making you more like the true and authentic you.

My hope is that these messages of healing will be different and guide you to that divine essence of You.

This past fall I realized that I couldn’t workout without feeling or getting sick. I was doing almost no high intensity-focused workouts, just sticking with strength training and walking. It didn’t matter what intensity I was doing because my body was very clearly telling me that working out was a big no.

And so I stopped with the weights. I just started going for walks and doing some yoga. This was tough for me. I’ve been active for years and years. Letting that fall away for a bit was a real test.

After some big time healing work (mainly mindset-focused) I started reintroducing some light weights into my days, mainly in the form of Pilates. I did this all through January. And then in February came the running.

How did I go from getting sick every time I worked out to running three times a week for a month straight?

Basically, I said screw it.

I just got over the limitations that I placed on myself. I asked why those limitations were there.

It was that easy, and it wasn’t easy at all.

Throughout my healing journey I have followed a lot of people on Instagram that I thought were helpful. Mainly I was focused on following people who have health-based accounts. If I’m scrolling then I better be learning, right?

Not necessarily.

As I started assessing my relationship with exercise, or lack thereof at the time, I started assessing other areas of my life and realized that those two were intricately connected. It’s really quite sneaky how things like this happen. You think that you’re doing something good for yourself by learning about health and then you wake up after 4 months of not working out and realize that the very things that were in your life in the name of health were not actually helping your health at all. Quite the opposite actually.

I unfollowed almost all of those accounts. I only kept a small handful of health-focused accounts and I kept them because I really love the people behind the accounts and I do still love to learn.

Oftentimes we think that some big fancy revelation or protocol has to take place to get ourselves out of a tough spot with our health.

Why does that have to be the case?

It doesn’t. You are in charge of your own life and you write your own story.

Dive deep into the nitty-gritty of your life.

What are you consuming in all areas of life? How does it make you feel? What are you putting out into the world? Who are you sharing your time with? What are you spending your time doing?

Ask yourself all of the questions and get as detailed as possible to get as much clarity as possible.

You can decide that you’re done with something and you will be.

You can decide to start working out and you can start working out again.

It can be that easy.

The first step is clarity. The second is belief. The third is implementation. The fourth is consistency. And the fifth is trust in yourself above all else.